Re-birth

I want to kill myself.
No, not tie a rope around my neck and jump off a high stool or swallow a lethal doze of dangerous pills.

Dark Times

I've had the song "Dark times" by The Weeknd and Ed Sheeran on loop for a while now. A long while.

My brother is getting sick of the song already...and of my Ed + Weeknd voice lol.

How do you know???

Today, a friend asked me for relationship advice.

ME!!

I was pleasantly surprised.

Anyway, she’s wondering what to do: she misses her ex and she’s “…currently in a relationship with someone I don’t even like.”

Can't stop? Won't stop? Don't stop.

For all of u that see the pain behind the smiles; the hurt behind their laughter;

For those of u who are dangling helplessly on the thin line between "just friends" and "something more"; and those who are hopelessly stuck in the friend zone;

A New Romance

Days like a blur,
Nights quick as a flicker;
It's like the notes in a slur,
My resolve's gettin weaker.

I use my devices late into the night;
Pour myself into social media.
I know I'm hiding, dodging this fight;
Choosing instead chats and trivia.

Aunt Berry

Denzel Bright is a three-year old ball of energy. My little nephew. He's the most mischievous kid I know. The last time I was with him, I left the house with a stinging face and some tiny injuries, courtesy of his penchant for playing rough.

"Some silence na curse"

My mum told me a silly story today while we were in the kitchen. I did the dishes while she prepared a kick-ass chicken sauce. Many a secret has been told & heard during those periods we often steal away to work together. I've always been a momma's boy.

Did You Live?

I got into an argument with my kid brother today...over my phone charger. It was really stupid. Long story short, he claimed the charger was his. And he was backing his argument impressively with facts (pulled out of thin air...lol).

What's the point?

I'm a clumsy dude. I've always been. I bang my body around and I run into walls. Till tomorrow, my bully of a brother, bless his heart, will keep calling me retard, idiot, numbskull, and a host of other sweet words, each fitting every one of my jonzing episodes.

Yesterday you said tomorrow

It's the 6th night of his stay in the hospital. Everyday that passes feels longer than the day before that. Makes it feel like we've been here a lot longer than just under a week.

Loverboy

I always kid my friends with something I heard my favorite comedian, Kevin Hart, say during his stand-up comedy show.

Hope

I know everything happens for a reason, but sometimes I really want to know what the reason is.
I'm not one to start doubting my faith or blaming God for misfortunes or problems with my family, but many times I just can't put my finger on the "lesson" I'm supposed to learn from these experiences.

We're not Friends

"But then again...if we're not friends, someone else might love you too..."

This line from Ed Sheeran's "FRIENDS" is the reason many people get into relationships that end up in disaster.
It's why beautiful friendships are ruined.

Clams and Pearls

This morning, I learnt something truly fascinating (to me).
During my family's prayer meeting, we were having a discussion that was centered around some sound advice that was in the letter the apostle Paul wrote to the Roman Christians.
It never ceases to amaze me, the level of insight this dude had.

Privacy

You know something we have that we seem to take for granted? The privacy of our own thoughts. The very fact that only you, the real you --your spirit--has absolute access to what goes on in your mind.

Truth

Who are you?
Really... who are YOU?
What exactly do you stand for?

I remember

07/03/16
19:49

My stomach hurts. Like crazy. Reminds me of you and your stomach troubles.
Reminds me of how you don't eat bread with tea; how you won't touch regular biscuits. 

PRISON

"It was cramped and stank of urine, faeces, cigarette smoke and filthy, diseased human bodies. There was only enough room to move a few steps in either direction or to squat with your knees pulled to your chest, else you'd constitute a nuisance. When we laid down to sleep, we had to lie in a neat file so that most of us would fit in, head to foot, foot to head, so we didn't have to inhale one another's stinky breaths. The rest had to stand, and these were usually the weaklings or the JJCs who didn't have a prison rep.
It was awful."

Fallow Ground

Yesterday, a cross-eyed dude in a funny flannel shirt came to my house. Apparently, he had been conscripted by the Bridagier General of the family (mummy...hahaa) to do some farm work on the small, uncemented area on the left side of the compound.

TODAY

Today, I'm alive.
Today, I'm capable.
Today, I'm responsible.

Today, I acknowledge that I've been granted a privilege: today.

Prioritize!

(Note to self...and whomever else that gives a flip)

Okay, Imma delve right into this.

If you wanna serve God, serve God!

Thoughts and books

I'm sitting in my dad's home office/study (after a nice workout session and a cool shower), and I'm just taking in this blissful euphoria that has settled on me.
It's nice here.
Quiet.

21

"Loving can hurt
Loving can hurt sometimes
But it's the only thing that I know.
When it gets hard
You know it can get hard sometimes
It is the only thing that makes us feel alive..."

What Do You See?

What do u see?
When you lie awake at night.
When you have those spontaneous flashes of the future.
When you experience epiphanies of what could be.

Running (II)

"I realize that passions create suffering. Many people cease to desire, just to relieve themselves of the pain and struggle to attain their dreams. They become zombies trapped in an intermediate, lukewarm state of existence that is neither hot nor cold!

Running

Anger. Hate. Jealousy.

Murderous feelings that have snaked their way into my soul. I’ve always been the good guy. The favorite kid. The brilliant student. The generous friend.